one inevitable sunday

in one word, ang araw na ito ay nakakaloka tipong it may cause brain damage.

dealing with this feeling is harder than i thought. i dunno bakit msyado ako affected. siguro, i feel for them and i think he might have fallen into the wrong hands. revelations were piercing. they are living in already and expecting their first born. oh well, he’s lovestruck and helplessly can’t do anything about it.  I want to attend but just for the sake of his family. they were all pleading. i don’t wanna appear like i’m a primadonna acting so important. it’s so nervewracking. i want to come but along with cjpl. i wanted him to realize that i can also move on too and be happy with someone else like what he did to me. but i feel like a loser at this point. i’m sure cjpl won’t come even if i ask him to. it’s like using someone else to tell everyone that you’re okay. i’m such a loser. i dunno what to do. this is killing me.  i can’t go without cjpl by my side. but it’s unresonable to do such

~ ni eorin sa Hunyo 1, 2008.